
Utterly distress when things don't go right.
You can't teach old dogs new tricks

I was in my early twenties when my dad ran into financial difficulties. The debt he accumulated was huge and I couldn't figure out how I could help to contribute towards our family's daily expenses. I was depressed and often cried myself to sleep. My dad loved his family dearly and had always wanted the best for his family. He was a smart guy but never had any experience in dealing with finances. From that day onwards, I learnt to be thrifty and wowed not to run into a similar fate like my father. I saved hard for every cent earned in the hope that I can have a better life with no financial implications. Despite having an affluent childhood, I was adamant to change, from being spend-thrift to a sensibly economical person. But I don't see that in my siblings and how they had learnt from this bitter lesson. They continued to spend lavishly by going abroad for holidays, indulge in expensive clubbing, dining out etc, etc. Whenever they run into debts or could not cover their expenses, they would call me for help. I would usually chip in to see what I could do for them and without hesitation lend them whatever the amount they needed. The funny thing is I couldn't see that I was indirectly exposing them to more danger. Over time, I began to hate myself for assisting them in such a wrong way. To stir myself away from this pitfall, I have decided to halt all monetary assistance to them except on humanitarian grounds.
Went out today and was determined to buy a medium-sized handbag for my forthcoming trip. I have always encounter the same problem, if I needed to purchase something, it is most unlikely that I would find one which is suitable. I really don't know why. So I came home without one but the good thing is I stumbled upon a shop selling pillows which were made solely from rubber. For quite some time, I had been looking for a firm pillow which provide support of the neck and I found it. I bought two, one was a contour pillow that helps to protect the neck and the other for hubby which was firm. It was quite costly and it costs RM149 each.
Am feeling disappointed, frustrated and helpless. It's not my problem, it's yours. Be responsible for your own problems. So, why come to me? I don't think I'm smart nor capable in resolving matters but definitely I'm vulnerable, so does that mean I have to grieve in silence. Wish I could blow it all away...
I always hear about people writing new year resolutions every New Year. How about you? Do you have a list of new year resolutions for 2009? In this post, I want to comment how I feel about those who make one. To me making a resolution is all about making a decision or choice. If the decision is made and not being carried out in that particular year, then your resolution is merely a wish which you set your heart on, with no aim or purpose, be it your decision is to acquire new skill, quit a bad habit or achieve a goal. Do not continue to make resolutions year after year without having any real purpose. Make sure you DO IT!
It has certainly been a much enjoyed break. I, for one take my holiday seriously. When you are on holiday, there are so many options and choices...whether you want to cook or eat out, to go to Langkawi or Pangkor, the decision is absolutely yours to make. Now that the school holiday is over and so is New Year, it's time to get back to work realistically.
So, let's get down to work......

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